I Will Follow You...

I think even Plato brought an amount of Socrates' influence when he proposed his philosophies. Well, he was his mentor anyway. Many rock bands today, no matter how assertive they are in convincing their fans that they are original, draw most of their inspiration from rock legends like Led Zeppelin, The Rolling Stone, Queen and even The Beatles. Today, when we choose what music we like and shape our personality, do we have the universal right to call ourselves original? Do we get to murder those who call us copy cats?

I am not pissed, and certainly not judging those who constantly trying to prove themselves that they are different, original and like what ordinary people shun. Just makes me wonder whether they know the fact they are, in a way influenced by people. Just that their idols are not part of the pop culture but that doesn't mean their worship is original. Does it matter if we are crazy over what most people love? What benefits do we really get by liking different stuff? Aren't we supposed to like what we love or have passion on deep inside? What is different in today's society anyway? Aren't we continuously re-defining the norms and believes? Even Christianity today is pretty different that the 60's except for the teachings in the Bible.



What we like today will never be the same 20 years later. Who knows in 50 years time, High School Musical will be placed in the Classic section in bookstores along with Nancy Drew, Shakespeare and Jane Austen. Things change. Trends come and go. Skinny jeans were trendy decades ago just similar to the hype of it today. Mailboy caps are common in the 30's and it's back now. We are actually recycling trends and believes. Many business strategies and theories today are influenced by Sun Tzi's The Art of War and those practiced by the Jewish in the olden days. (Like it or not, studies show that they are smarter people than most races).

As for me, I just want to follow whatever that really captivates my heart. I am religious, so basically my believes and mindsets are deeply influenced by religion. But I also believe that religion is not a constraint for us to live in today's society. I think people should just like what they like and what they think it's right for them. No point trying so hard to be different, don't you think?



Maybe this is original, I dunno. But I works no matter how many people say they copy from the random flashers in US.

I saw a rainbow a two weeks ago and to test what kind of human beings I am, I asked myself what I feel deep inside when I witness such beautiful array of colours. Indeed rainbow is a marvel when we were young. My science teacher back in primary school will ask us to run out of the classroom to gaze upon it whenever it appears after rain. But as our hormones start to rage and coming to the end of puberty (or self-defined puberty) we start to view it in gazillion ways.

The rainbow I saw gave me hope- better days are going to come to me though we are all under the whole recession paranoia and those moments when I feel that not good enough or losing my grips on the expertise I used to be proud of. Yes. I might be too sentimental or emotional over a product of refraction (or is it some other light-related processes? I dunno) but I can't help it. It's just me, I guess. Ever so emotional and some people did told me that men who are emotional are pretty unstable. Really?



I want to write songs again. I haven't been writing any since 2007. Tried to write a few but they are incomplete, with no thanks to writers block. I want to write an R&B style worship song. I already have fragments of the melody, now just waiting for me to remember them, get the words done and find someone to write them down for me.....But I have no inspiration. T.T

I don't know why but nowadays I have worries and sadness I myself cannot define or explain. I just know that I am sad and anxious over matters but I have no idea what are they. I tried to be jovial but I feel the happiness I exert has a chain holding it back; like a Labrador Retriever chained to a hook. All I can tell myself is that happier days will come. Maybe I should start watching comedy or anything that will make me happy. Or do random stuf like ordering a Starbucks in Coffee Bean or something. ahahaha



Btw, I say this in 1U. It seems that nowadays killing zombies is part of the P.E syllabus. Oh. Our nation will be safe from zombie attacks and outbreaks. ahahahahhaha

Inspire and Influence

It's amazing how we can be easily inspired and the same time, be easily influenced. Reading a book that throws us either propaganda shits or anarchy rubbish, watching a colourful movie, constantly soaked by the type of music your brother likes but you despise or the simple act of gazing at random shananigans people get into. We get insights that open up the boundaries we are trapped in, or either be angry at ourselves why we let such monstrosity invade our pseudo-perfect life.

I watched this Iranian documentary called Salaam Cinema just now in class and my puny mind was inspired...or at least educated. Documentaries are not the typical ones we see on Nat Geo and Discovery Channel and I got to realise how the circumstances in Iran had shaped the different perceptions towards life and cinema in Iran. My brother soaked me into tonnes of Lady Gaga nowadays and I am beginning to save 2 songs (AHHH!!!!!!) in my cellphone. Gosh. We'll never know what we will turn into the next minute, seriously. We might turn into zombies, but then again, Angelin won't be happy, and she will start using her survival kits. ahahahahah. joking lah.

But this great friend reminded me that we do change, but as long as we don't start judging others who are not in par with us, it's okay because we were probably in those shoes back then. Seriously, after going through different experiences in life, I believe we will somehow forget what we initially told ourselves to become. Situations do change us most of the time. But I think just as long as I remember who I used to be and not become someone people despise, I think I will be okay.

But I think I won't be crazy over Lady Gaga, taht's for sure. If I start to be fanatic, you guys can shoot me. Ahahahahahhaha. No, I'm not kidding.

Today I felt a mild version of the feelings I felt when my sister moved out. For some reason, I felt lonely despite chatting with my college mate in the cafeteria earlier ago. Knowing that for the next few months life will be quite different gave me that feeling I think. I really don't like that, but that was the feeling that kick started my whole journey of growing up and breaking free.

I was told that I have to stand up by myself now. I cannot expect the people around me to lift me up all the time. I am 21 now and life just get started. I forsee tough challenges and more complicated circumstances ahead of me that will make me cry even more. Hey. Who says life is easy right? I'll be fine.

Btw Aimee. Angelin and I finaly can explain why people like to use 'it's complicated' for their facebook status. You'll be surprised where we got our inspiration from. haha. Tell you some other time.

I Need Something New...

Spending two whole months at home gives you 'gifts' I tell you. Either you start picking up things you swear you won't or put you in deep thoughts about your life, that's what the Australians give you during breaks when you take their programmes. 

Lately, a few of my friends told me that I am more silent nowadays. I used to be more talkative, talking about everything under the sun. But nowadays for some reason I find it hard to start conversations. I find it hard to even open my mouth. Is this what happens to those who spend too much time sitting at home in front of the computer? Or am I in need of new insights, fresher views to rejuvenate the dried me.

It's not that I am not thankful with what I have now. I am. Occasionally I will ask for something more, but I do appreciate every little thing that works around me. I just want to know what's up with me. Will going for a trip bring me back to my old, bubbly self? Hey, or am I trying to act more macho to woo girls? I seriously dunno weh. But something tells me I need a new breeze. 

Go watch a movie? I did. Go hang out with your friends? I always do. Go pick up a new skill? Picking up the guitar now....Sigh

Aimee. When you balik, lets go for ice-skating and then watch a movie after that. Angelin said ok, but she's trying to make me watch horror movie. T.T ahahahahha. And/or lets go for picnic in a new park or something..or check out whether taman bukit jalil finish renovating already or not. 

Shoot Me If I Am Not The Old Yi Pin

Friction of a metal blade against an ice surface, dozens of skaters with various skills and the sight of children practicing figure skating. I was fascinated by this sight when I waited for my adik in Sunway Pyramid. I remember when I was young, I can only awe at figure skaters and those who ice-skate for leisure. Knowing that my parents who couldn't afford to send me to swimming class, figure skating will be deemed an extreme luxury if I ever mention it to my parents.

This might sound superficial but it's true. I really do hope that I was raised in wealth. Then dreams will never have limits and awe will be something people use on us and not vice versa. If I were to be like Richie Rich, getting into shape will not be a struggle to me. Clothes will not be something I have to think twice about when I buy them and whatever I want to pick up will never be hindered by limited fundings. I probably know how to play the piano and have attended years of vocal training.

The again, I am not resentful towards the fact that I have plastics spoons instead of silver ones. Growing up in an average working class family taught me values I probably won't learn if I were to be rich. It taught me how valuable it is to have hope for my future and how I should work hard to achieve them or I might end up being a sane Beethoven roaming around Seri Petaling asking for food. I probably might not have what I own today if I were a rich boy.



Life is a very special subject. It's interesting to see how different moulds can give different faces of it. You might ask whether am I being ungrateful or am I running towards superficial indulgences? No. I am not. Just the occasion moments where I portray myself in different areas of life. I am curious how my life will turn out in the next 3, 5 and 10 years. Will I like what I do? Will I be happy? Will I condemn myself for pursuing my dreams?

I am curious...

I was tagged by Angelin..a very long time ago. Hehe. 

You are also known as:
Pink- So What
Am I that rebellious kah? Ahahahahahhaha

Your funeral song:
John Mayer- Clarity
Hmmm.... Yea. You people should worry that much when I die. Hehehe

What you think of the world:
Kangta-Where the Dream Take You
Awww.....So fairy tale-y.

How you're feeling today:
Bee Gees- Tragedy
I had a good day today wor..Yi Hui lah the one with tragedy. He had allergy.

The song that will be stuck in your head for weeks on end:
Anggun- Mimpi

Your significant other sings this to you:
John  Mayer- Say
Ok. I'll say what I need to say

Your theme song at your funeral:
Shayne Ward- That's My Goal
"I'm here to win your heart and soul. That's my goal..." Hah? At my funeral? 

You should create this song title as a screen name:
Shayne Ward - No Promises

You would get on your knees and sing this to your best friend:
Shayne Ward- Breathless
Is it okay to sing cheesy love songs to your best friend?....I think it's okay. hehe

The result of your breakup:
John Mayer- Waiting On The World To Change
Wah. So  positive way to look at it kah?

How to resolve a fight:
Coldplay-Viva La Vida
The song is about a  once mighty person becoming powerless woh. What are you trying to tell me, O Limewire?

On your first date, this would be playing in the background:
Sheryl Crow and Sting-Always On Your Side
Does this mean I'll be having a sweet first date. (Wait curiously)

Get down to:
Avril Lavigne- Complicated
Huh?!!

Headbang to this tune:
Leona Lewis- Better In Time

Susah lah! Headbang artistically like a ballerina kah?

Song of escape:
Celine Dion and Bee Gees-Immortality
Is this a good sign?

Uh oh, you failed an assignment. This song pops into your head:
Bryan Adams- Heaven
My mum will kill me if she finds this out. ahahahhahaha

Picture this song as an opera:
Carrie Underwood- Before He Cheats
Yea. I can picture it...

Or rather, this one as a hardcore metal screamo song:
Kris Dayanti-Mencintaimu
Wah. This must be a hardcore love. Think Fred Durst singing this to Siti Nurhaliza.

What happens when you find true love:
Andrea Bocelli and Sarah Brightman- Time to Say Goodbye.
T.T So kesian meh? But...But I thought I'll be having a sweet first date? Nooooo...............